Dear Miss Daisy,
I’ve read each word over and over, and I hear you. Not just the words… but what your heart is asking for.
I love you. That hasn’t changed… not for one second has my love for you changed and I believe what we share is real, true and not for one moment wasted.
But because I love you… I won’t keep you in a place that makes it harder for you to heal.
My heart is broken, my soul feels so torn and I miss you beyond words, but I know me being divided is hurting you too.
I’m choosing to step back fully, and though this is literally the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
I will do it…no more comments, no more reaching out. I will give you the space your heart is asking for. I will still pray, still listen for the sound of the hawk, still try to understand the butterfly… still surrender to the story.
This is not me erasing you, and this is certainly it’s not me minimizing what we share. It is me honoring it enough to let it rest without me pulling on it ten thousand times a day.
I’m grateful for you. I thank you, I love you truly and deeply, please forgive me… I am sorry. I bless you. And I pray to God that your life is full of the peace, joy, and a love that meets you fully where you are, not half way… not conflicted… not ever divided.
You miss Daisy… you deserve all that beauty and all that light, and a whole love.
I’ve still got so much more healing and so much more work to do… but even in all of this pain, even in the silence I am, and will always be for you.
So I will say goodbye, for now.
