Hard Day

 Today

Today is a hard day

Today is a hard fought day

Conflict and conviction

Satisfaction seems unattainable 

When it comes to my heart

I beg for her happiness, I pray for her peace,

I hope for her wholeness… but what about me?

There are chambers in my soul, she alone holds the key to.

I’m fighting to not need her so much, but my pretense seems rather see-through

The grief comes in waves, eroding the shore line of my resolve 

The longing burns hot through the haze, revealing a heart lost in the foam.

Today is a hard day,

Today is a hard fought day

Resolve and resigning 

To fight through the next year ahead

Beautifully broken, grateful in grief, refusing the retreat in the thick of the pain. 

There is ink of her on my skin, her mark indelibly ever a part of me.

There are lines on my soul, written by her for only the stars to see.

Then that smile of hers breaks in, blessing and wrecking both despair and delight 

With song she ushers the healing to begin, bringing peace as we are known… I pray for our hearts tonight. 

Today is a hard day

Today is a hard fought day

Hope and helplessness 

Surrendering my control, trusting the love we have is so much more than what we hold.

Forever grateful to be marked now as I am, eternally changed, always the dreamer… never the same. 

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