Dear Miss Daisy

 Dear Miss Daisy, 

I’ve read each word over and over, and I hear you. Not just the words… but what your heart is asking for.

I love you. That hasn’t changed… and I believe what we shared is real, true and not  for one moment wasted.

But because I love you… I won’t keep you in a place that makes it harder for you to heal.

My heart is broken, my soul feels so torn and I miss you beyond words, but I know me being divided is hurting you too. 

I’m choosing to step back fully, and though this is literally the hardest thing I’ve ever done. 

I will do it…no more comments, no more reaching out. I will give you the space your heart is asking for.

This is not me erasing you, and this is certainly it’s not me minimizing what we shared. It is me honoring it enough to let it rest without me pulling on it ten thousand times a day.

I’m grateful for you. I thank you, I love you, please forgive me… I am sorry. I bless you. And I pray to God that your life is full of the peace, joy, and a love that meets you fully where you are, not half way… not conflicted… not ever divided.

You miss Daisy… you deserve all that beauty and all that light, and a whole love. 

I’ve still got so much more healing and so much more work to do. 

So I will say goodbye, for now.